Blah blah blah

Holy SHIT!

2008-06-20T10:20:31Z

i JUST remembered my damn password for livejournal... it's been way over a year. craziness.

It's Official...

2005-08-16T20:17:14Z

I have one of the CUTEST CATS EVER BORN!

That is freaking adorable...

yesterday

2005-08-12T01:11:00Z

so, i went to warped tour yesterday. i had fun, but in all truth, it was the worst warped tour i've ever been to. they didn't have beer everywhere, and when i finally found where the beer was being sold, they were all out. much sadness. there was also the issue of my new tattoos. they got dirty and the one on my left foot got really nasty. most of my foot turned red and swelled up like violet beauregarde would have done if that damn piece of gum had ended with apple pie instead of blueberry... to make it even worse, there was a lot of oozing going on. gross.

tattoo is doing a little better. it stopped oozing and the swelling has gone down. now it's just red and really scabby. i hope it turns out okay.

Took it again... Kinda creepy how the damn thing always seems to be right...

2005-08-08T19:55:28Z

http://www.colorgenics.com

You are longing for a little love and tenderness. At present you are feeling very sensitive and need a sympathetic shoulder to lean on. You don't need any further stresses, strains or arguments so take a deep breath and relax.

You are in need of rest, some peace and quiet. You feel the need to be close to that someone special, that someone who can give you that special consideration and unquestioning affection that you seek. If you don't find that 'special someone' and resolve your problems very soon, you are liable to become extremely introverted and cut yourself off from society.

Nothing seems to be going right for you and you are thwarted every way you turn. You are not at all happy with the situation but it would appear that there is very little that you can do about it at this time. Sit back and let the situation take its course, because at this time you feel that there is nothing you can do to change whatever needs to be changed.

You pretend that you are a carefree individual and that nothing really bothers you - that you are so self-sufficient that whatever problems beset you they simply flow off you as water flows off a ducks back. You are experiencing considerable stress, trying to conceal yourself from the rest of the world. In actual fact - deep down, you are not at all happy. You feel lonely and you need someone with whom you can 'Let your hair down' and share your hopes, dreams and high standards. You are imposing unnecessary self restraint on yourself. You would like to demonstrate the unique quality of your character to all and sundry.

Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

Oh, the pain....

2005-08-08T18:11:53Z

hurt... but very worth it. check out the new tats everyone.

Getting drunk with my ex was a bad idea... ♥broken

2005-08-01T11:45:23Z

So I stare at the wall,
Feeling everything is wrong
I have lost my heart
To a boy who can't be mine
I have fallen in love, with no use

What I wouldn't give to be as detached from my feelings as he is. But, unfortunately for me, I've been hurt plenty of times and I'm still not numb.

Too depressed to sleep.

P.S.- I would like to thank someone for letting me know that they care. Thank you, that meant a lot.

Just wanted to share with everyone the cutest picture of me ever.

2005-07-31T21:57:01Z

Well, off to get drunk with my ex...

Yay! I'm a happy Jesi!

2005-07-29T22:46:37Z

Whoo hoo! I finally got a new cell phone.
Bye bye cracked screen.
Hello camera phone.
Bye bye stupid phone.
Hello nifty phone.

Man, I do too many quizzes

2005-07-29T08:33:52Z

But I just couldn't resist.

You are Alice!

You are femme and very talkative. You are very
oppinionated and artistic. You are bisexual
and can't figure out which one to be with...you
feel the need to choose one sex over the other
being the better. You want to find love and
get frustrated with concept. Slow down, enjoy
life, and have fun....and try not to be a
chatter box!

Which L Word cast memeber are you?
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psychokitty13 @ 2005-07-27T18:30:00

2005-07-27T22:34:50Z

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

My results:

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognize the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.

For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.

At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have un-admitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliché 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?

Every time I've taken this thing, it's been freakishly accurate. This time was no exception.

I think I've figured it out.

2005-07-27T02:44:07Z

So, I think someone has put a curse on me at some point in my life.

The terms of this horrible jinx are that I shall be forever doomed to short-lived relationships, that must always end in my being dumped.

This is the only explanation, considering the fact that I can't even think of what I could have possibly done wrong this time.

I'm getting so sick of this. I really am. It hurts every time and I think this is one of the worst.

Anyone know how to break a curse? I'm open to suggestions.

Yes, I'm VERY BORED...

2005-07-15T06:51:53Z

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

Well, Chris, you were right.

2005-07-07T18:21:52Z

Which Final Fantasy character are you like?

You're a moogle!

Kupooooooooooooooooooo! You apparently enjoy saying..."Kupo" a lot...

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psychokitty13 @ 2005-06-25T19:17:00

2005-06-25T23:17:57Z

What kind of jewel are you?

Watermelon Tourmaline

You are truly one of a kind. Your beauty is unique, which makes people love you all the more.

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I'm so fucking lame.

2005-06-25T21:31:46Z

No one wants to hang out with me.

:(

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-06-25T09:18:46Z

CAN'T...FUCKING...SLEEP.
I...HATE...INSOMNIA.

Nicole, eat your heart out!

2005-06-24T20:04:41Z

The quiz knows whats up....

2005-06-23T18:18:20Z

What Is Your REAL Sexuality? by ljtaylor
Your sexuality:	Bisexual
Username

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Hehe...

2005-06-23T18:15:31Z

What is the real meaning behind your name? by punkashcrayon
Name:
Meaning:	One who will solicite and bother many people.

Quiz created with MemeGen!

So, I stepped on a wasp today and had a fucking panic attack. I hate wasps. This was the first time I've been stung since I was 4 years old.

If everyone else jumped off a bridge, would I?

2005-06-22T18:40:40Z

01. Name: Jessica Kristina Retzer
02. Birth date: January 4, 1983
03. Birthplace: San Francisco, CA
04. Current Location: Prince Frederick, MD
05. Eye Color: Hazel
06. Hair Color: Currently: Dark Red. Naturally: Dark Blond
07. Height: 5'6"
08. Righty or Lefty: Southpaw, Bitches
09. Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
10. Marital Status: Not Married
11. Nicknames: Jesi seems to be the only one...
12. Number of Siblings: 1 sister, 2 step-sisters
13. Name of Siblings: Sister: Jen, Step-Sisters: Jenni and Tina

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STUFF THAT ISN'T REALLY IMPORTANT BUT IS ASKED ANYWAYS

14. What did you do yesterday?: Watched some movies and hung out around my house with my Andrew
15. What are you doing today?: A shitload of housework
16. What are you doing tomorrow?: No fucking clue
17. What are you listening to?: The sound of me typing
18. What country would you most like to visit?: Japan
19. What are you most afraid of?: Being alone
20. What are you wearing?: Still in my PJs. Hello Kitty PJs, of course.
21. What are you thinking about right now?: I've GOT TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!
22. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?: Midnight Blue
23. One pillow or two, cotton or feather?: One feather
24. How do you eat a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup?: Whole! I've got a big mouth.
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ARE YOU...

25. Single?: No, sorry boys and girls... guess you'll just have to wait until this one dumps me.
26. Quiet?: HaHa... That's fucking funny. I'm loud as fuck.
27. Understanding?: I like to think so. At least I really try to be.
28. Arrogant?: Sometimes.
29. Insecure?: Sometimes.
30. Interesting?: I'd say so.
31. Friendly?: One of the friendliest people you'll ever meet.
32. Smart?: Very, although I don't really act like it sometimes.
33. Moody?: Not really.
34. Childish?: I can be.
35. Independent?: I think idependently, but as far as being independent in general, not so much.
36. Emotionally Stable?: As emotionally stable as the average person, I guess.
37. Shy?: Fuck no.
38. Attractive?: I think I'm pretty okay looking, and I've never really been told otherwise.
39. Bored Easily: ADD, motherfuckers!
40. Responsible?: Not a word I would use to describe myself.
41. Sad?: Everyone gets sad every once in a while. I'm not usually sad unless I have a reason to be.
42. Obsessive?: At times.
43. Obsessive compulsive?: Don't think so.
44. Psycho?: I'm a Psychobitch outta Hell, Baby...
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WHAT'S...

45. Your heritage?: Scots-Irish, German, and Native American
46. Your weakness?: I'm too trusting. That's gotten me in a lot of trouble and given me a lot of heartbreak.
47. Your fears?: Being alone, bees, and wasps.
48. Your perfect pizza?: White pizza with tomatoes, riccota, and onions.
49. Your pet peeve?: Judgmental people.
50. Your current mood?: Hungry and bored.
51. Your current music?: The mixtape Andrew made me.
52. Your current taste?: Coffee
53. Your current hair?: Dark Red, curly, with bangs.
54. Your current smell: I smell like chocolate.
55. Your current favorite celebrity: Patricia from the Horrorpops. That bitch fucking rocks!
56. Your most overused phrase on AIM/AOL/MSN?: BOOBIES!
57. Your thoughts first waking up?: cigarette...
58. Your best physical feature?: My eyes, or, honestly, BOOBIES!
59. Your bedtime?: What the fuck is a bedtime?
60. Your most missed memory?: This is a stupid question that I refuse to answer.
61. Your good luck charm?: I don't have one. Maybe that's why I don't have good luck...
62. Your favorite quote?: Don't think I have one.
63. The worst song you ever heard?: One of the songs on the mixtape Andrew made me, don't know what it's called.
64. The last thing you ate?: Blackberries
65. The last thing you said?: "Leave me alone, Gary. I need more sleep." (Gary is my Step-Dad)
66. The best song you ever heard?: That's a difficult question to answer, so I won't.
67. The shoes you wore today?: My black fuzzy slippers. Still in my Hello Kitty PJs, remember?
68. The most embarrassing thing you've done?: Don't really know. I don't get embarrassed easily.
69. Your room is like?: Pretty fucking lame right now. I just moved back into my parents house and it's still decorated the way my mom had it.
70. Goal you'd like to achieve?: Stability.
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HAVE YOU EVER

71. Fallen for your best friend?: When I was in middle school, I had a huge crush on my best friend, Terri. But I never told her, because she would have freaked out.
72. Made out with JUST a friend?: Yeah
73. Been rejected?: Of course. A lot.
74. Been in love?: A few times.
75. Been in lust?: Quite a few times.
76. Used someone?: No.
77. Been used?: More times than I'd like to admit. All goes back to my weakness of being too trusting.
78. Cheated on someone?: Yeah, not proud of it.
79. Been cheated on?: Not to my knowledge, but that doesn't necessarily mean no.
80. Done something you regret?: Yeah, but who hasen't. With me, regret doesn't linger, I move on.
81. Loved someone so much it made you cry?: Yes
82. Smoked?: Every day since I was 13. I'm gonna die.
83. Broken the law?: Plenty of times.
84. Broken a bone?: 8, actually.
85. Cheated on a test?: Never really had to cheat.
86. Skinny dipped?: I spent all of my teenage years living in Florida in houses with pools in the backyard. Need I say more?
87. Played truth or dare?: Who hasen't played truth or dare in their lifetime?
88. Flashed someone?: Oh man. That what I'm famous (or infamous) for!
9. Mooned someone?: I don't think so.
0. Kissed someone you didn't know?: Yes. But, it's not like I didn't know his name. And I was very drunk.
91. Been in a physical fight?: Unfortunatly, yes.
92. Ridden in a police car?: Yes. On our way to school, my friend Eric ran into the person in front of him and royally fucked up his Saturn, so Deputy Winn gave us a ride to school.
93. Been on a plane?: Many times. Longest flight: I flew from Frankfurt to LA (19 hours) and had a 2 hour break then went from LA to Honolulu (5 hours). 24 hours on a plane + 11 year-old Jesi = one pissed off little girl.
94. Come close to dying?: Thankfully, no.
95. Been in a sauna?: No.
96. Been in a hot tub?: Used to have one in our backyard when I lived in Florida.
97. Swam in the ocean?: Yes. Lived 1 year in Hawaii and 8 in Florida.
98. Done illegal drugs?: Yeah.
99. Played a game that required removal of clothing?: Yes. Even played strip spades once, that was fun.
100. If so, was it mixed company?: Yes.
101. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated?: Oh, yeah.
102. Been called a tease?: Yes.
103. Gotten beaten up?: Yes. 3 against 1 just isn't fucking fair.
104. Considered a life of crime?: No.
105. Considered being a hooker?: Absolutly not.
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WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON

106. You talked to in person?: My step-dad.
107. You talked to on the phone?: Andrew.
108. You instant messaged?: Travis.
109. You had lunch with?: My mom and my step-sister, Jenni (aka, the nice one).
110. You kissed?: Andrew.
111. Who broke your heart?: Mike.
112. Who kissed you?: Andrew.
113. You had physical contact with?: Andrew... hmmmm... nice thoughts...
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DO YOU

114. Color your hair?: Don't even remember the last time it was my natural color.
115. Have tattoos? 17 of 'em.
116. Have Piercings?: Yup.
117. Floss daily? I should, but I don't.
118. Own a web cam? No.
119. Ever get off the computer?: Yeah.
120. Like Parks?: Yeah, who doesn't?
121. Like school?: Eh, not so much.
122. Collect anything?: HELLO FUCKING KITTY!
123. Work?: Not right now.
124. Like shopping?: Yup, especially when I'm with my mom.
125. Party?: Hell yeah!
126. Smoke?: Every day.
127. Sing?: In the car.
128. Have a crush?: It's a litte more than that.
129. Do you think you've been in love?: I know it.
130. Want to go to college?: Blah.
131. Like(d) high school?: Some of it. I went to 5 different high schools. I guess I liked my time at Riverview High School (that would be my sophmore and junior years).
132. Want to get married?: Eventually.
133. Believe in yourself?: I usually do.
134. Get motion sickness?: No.
135. Think you're attractive? Yeah.
136. Think you're a health freak?: Not at all. I smoke every day, remember?
137. Get along with your parent(s)?: Generally, yes. But we have our moments...
138. Like thunderstorms?: I love them. I used to live in the "Lightning Capital of the World". It was fucking awesome.
139. Play an instrument?: Used to play the flute.
140. Do you have a lava lamp?: No.
141. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: Yeah. I like to hold onto something while I'm sleeping.

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PREFERENCES.....

142. Pepsi or Coke: Coke
143. McDonald's or Burger King: I like 'em both.
144. Single or group dates: Single.
145. Adidas or Nike: Ummm... Converse? Vans?
146. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton.
147. Chocolate or vanilla: I like 'em both.
148. Cappuccino or coffee: Latte.
149. Chicken or fish: Chicken. Unless it's Salmon. I fucking love Salmon.
150. Thongs or Panties (girls only please): I don't wear underwear...
151. Boxers or Briefs (guys only please):
152. Candy or mints: Candy AND mints.

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IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU
153. Drunk alcohol?: Yeah.
154. Smoked?: How many fucking times... yes.
155. Done a drug?: No.
156. Had Sex?: Yes, yesterday. :)
157. Made Out?: Yes, yesterday. :)
158. Gone on a date?: Yes.
159. Gone to the mall?: Yes.
160. Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: No.
161. Eaten sushi?: No.
162. Been on stage?: No.
163. Been dumped?: Yes.
164. Gone skating? No.
165. Made homemade cookies?: No. I should though. I love making cookies.
166. Gone skinny dipping?: Does being naked in a hot tub count?
167. Dyed your hair?: Yup.
168. Stolen anything?: No.

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IN A GUY/GIRL

169. Best eye color: Green or Blue.
170. Best hair color: Don't have a prefrence.
171. Short or long hair: Short.
172. Height: Tall.
173. Best weight: I like skinny guys. As far as girls go, it's all about distribution.
174. Best articles of clothing: Huh?
175. Best first date location: Dinner. Good place for conversation.
176. Best first kiss location: Anywhere really.
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DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

177. Aliens?: Yes.
178. Angels?: Don't know.
179. Heaven?: Yes.
666. Hell?: Yes.
180. God?: Maybe.
181. Yourself? Most of the time.
182. Ghosts?: Yes.
183. Love?: Yes.
184. Love at first sight: Yeah, I've been there. My first love was love at first sight.
185. Tooth Fairy?: No.
186. Santa Claus?: No.
187. The Easter Bunny?: No.
188. Cupid? No.

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YOUR FUTURE

189. Where do you want to go to college?: Eh, Blah.
190What do you want to be when you grow up?: Grow up? Do I have to?
192. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with..?: Someone I love who loves me back and treats me with respect.
193. Where do you want to get married?: Don't really know yet.
194. Do you want to have a small or big wedding?: Small
195. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon?: Don't really know that either.
196. Do you want to have children?: No. But that could change.
197. How many children do you want to have?: ummm... none.
198. What do you want to name them?: ....
199. Where do you want to live?: Not sure. Anywhere but here?
200. How do you want to die?: Doesn't matter, as long as I had a fulfilling life.

goes along with previous entry....

2005-06-18T19:37:13Z

When I took that personality test it gave me a trait snapshot... This is what it said about me:

messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, postitive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture.

Kinda creepy how right that personality test was.

76% Hedonism? Who would have thunk?

2005-06-17T20:43:29Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Altruism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Religious	\|\|	10%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Avoidant	\|\|	10%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%

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Update

2005-06-17T01:56:20Z

So, I haven't posted anything in a while. I was sick and spent most of my time talkin on the phone with my new man. He's fucking awesome, only thing is he lives in Frederick. So I don't get to see him often. People need to call me. I'm so fucking bored. I've been spending too much time at home and it's driving me crazy. I really need to get out now that I'm feeling better. So, hear that people? CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!

psychokitty13 @ 2005-06-11T00:39:00

2005-06-11T04:40:21Z

Being sick fucking sucks.

psychokitty13 @ 2005-06-07T15:47:00

2005-06-07T19:47:41Z

What Makes You.. by SheBangs12
Your name?
Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your hips
What makes you pretty?	Your eyes
What makes you loveable?	How loving you are
What makes you fun?	Your positive attitude
What makes you irresistable?	Your voice
What makes you cute?	How affectionate you are

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